Amanda Jorgensen

Moonlight

as the moonlight his the ground,

stars shining all around.

two people dance,

in eachother inbrace,

alowing no one to take their place.

its no one but them and the song,

together they could be all night long.

no one knows why they are,

it just came down from a star.

and like the moonlight shining bright,

nothing will ever end the night.

for the heavens will touch their hearts forever,

hopefully they'll always be together.

but now as the song ends,

towars eachother they bend.

sharing one eternal kiss,

forever in eternal bliss.

and as the moonlight shines down upon them,

the songs and dance will never end.

~Have You Ever~

have you ever

love someone so much

it made you cry?

have you ever

hurt so bad

that you wish that you'd die

have you ever

known a love so deep

that you could never reach the floor

have you ever

felt like your heart

was slamed in a door

have you ever

felt like you dont know

how much more your soul could die

have you ever

not known that

you had lied

have you ever

wanted so bad that

all you do is dream

have you ever

had someone you could trust

upon their shoulder you could lean

have you ever

wanted forgiveness so bad

that it was all you thought about

have you ever

been so hungry to see someone

that it made your stomach scream

have you ever

been so in love

that nothing would ever change your mind

have you ever

cried so many tears

that water was all you could find

have you ever

said "im sorry" so many times

that you lost count

have you ever

loved so much

that you wanted to scream and shout

have you ever

i have....

I wonder if anyone cares

amongst all these crazy stares

i wish that my sould was free

that way i could be me

but so many people bring me down

they tear me up and throw me around

i once tried to end my life

it would have been taken away by a suicide knife

but then my life took a spin

and my life begain again

u came along

singing one of your crazy songs

u brought a new life

and took away that knife

now i thank you

for what uve helped me through

Friends

we started out as friends

for eachother

we would go to no ends

i was there for u

and u for me

friends we will always be

i loved u once

but that was never ment to be

i always thought u felt the same about me

i was just to blind to see

what u thought we would be

im glad to be ur friend

dont get me wrong

i just wish that i hadent heard that stupid song

and now ur friend ill always be

because u love someone other than me

i wanted to get it over with

i hated my life

so i ended it all

with a suicide knife

i went to heven

and saw all of my friends

and then thought

well this is how it all ends

i never relized the friends i had

i didnt relize they would be so sad

i guess that i should have thought first

now i feel like the worst

ive hurt all of u so much

i wish i could feel just one touch

but my body lies 6 feet under

my soul no longer walks ablunder

what i wouldnt give to take this away

ill just have to see u all another day

im sorry that i hurt u all so much

now i cant even feel your touch

im here above u in the cloud

while my bodies in the ground

i had done so much wrong

i though this would be better all along

but now i regret even doing so

cuz now im even more alone

this is the end

its all over and done with

i have no where to belong

i have tried my whole life

to come along

and make my own song

but ive tried for much to long

and now i see excatly how i wanted to be

that expectation grew and grew

and then it over powered me

now all i see is red

the red is blood from my vien

the opening causin u to go insane

i dont regret it now

how u came along and saved me

but how can that be

it seemed like no one ever cared

i was always so scared

now the end is near

and i have nothing to frear

would u

would u miss me if i was gone

would u miss me long

would u hold me if i cried

or even if u just sighed

would u love me like i do u

u know that ill always be true

woul u still feel the same

if my soul was tame

if i offered u wings to fly

would i not be dynied

would u follow me

no matter where it may be

will u hold me now as i cry

as my soul gradualy dies

will u tell me it will be ok

not to worry about today

because i want to hide

not from u but from everyone

away from the blinding sun

wil u always be the one

will u always come

when i call ur name

will u be the same

would u, will u

take me with u

far far away

some where we can stay

away from the pain

i called and u came

Fly

As I lay here

sourounded by my own blood

my soul flys to heven

away from the mud

this world has torn me up

and spat me out

the chewed up pieces

could fit in a cup

you know i love you

but i couldnt take anymore

my life has finaly

washed ashore

i wasnt murdered or killed

except by my own self

the last book was

put upon the shelf

i once thought

now all i have

are these battle scares

i always thought

i would fly away

who knew that

would happen today

i give you one last kiss

know that ill be sorly missed

but its to late

to go back now

this will stop the pain

anyhow

i thought my life

was like a fire

not sure when to go out

or when to lose desire

you know i love u

and that we'll meet again one day

then your soul will join mine

and we'll fly away.

Always

would u miss me if i was gone

if my soul had no where to belong

i always told myself

that feelings where better left upon the shelf

now there is no life

i was killed by all of my strife

i was killed by a knife

it took away all of my life

i told you i love you

you said you did too

that was so long ago

that i thought you had just let go

now i see your tear streaked face

i know that my sould will have a place

it will be inside your heart always.

The days float by like and endless dream

soon to be torn apart, ripped at the seam

my love for u will never die

cause when im with you i can fly

i know that someday it will come to an end

but even then youll still be my best friend

i want u to know that always

our love will last the for the rest of our days

For You

Ink spreading across the page

We spoke once agian

Of ebracing eachother

In a moment of cannila and nightfall

The days are all alike:

Sorrow filling our hearts,

Tears filling in my eyes,

A cloud falling upon us.

We are learning to love,

Open up,

To take matters into out own hands.

The hope held us tight

For six months my heart so'ared.

Its wings streaching and spreading.

But these moments are finished,

As we opened the door,

Tangled with emotions,

We wispered 'Good-bye.'

Dried Out Roses

Old red roses, dry and dead,

Wilted petals fall instead,

He gave me once to keep.

Those days they lagged like lonlely sleep.

And now they sit ans the has passed,

Alone, withought a love at last.

With shadows of our old love cry,

And wilted roses that wont die.

A phone with no one there to call,

I try to forget but dont at all.

I once left your name there to find,

I called it sweet, true, and kind.

But when i found it, it was gone.

You took it back and then moved on.

And so i sit here, cold and blue,

With nothing more for me to do.

But sit, nothing left to say

And throw the roses all away.

Alone

I didnt want to admit it,

It was easier to lie,

And hide the hurt and emptyness,

To smile instead of cry.

I didnt want to face the fact,

My life is full of pain.

And i long to stop my bleeding heart

And maybe smile agian.

'Cause i feel oh-so-forgotten,

So betraed and so alone,

Without a trace of forgiveness

And no soul to call my own.

I didnt want to admit the fact,

I cannot spread my wings.

And my happiness has melted

Into tears and other things.

It's hard to hide for me to hide the fact,

My wishes have no home.

And return to anguish

Bow my head and cry alone.

The Kiss

It happened so quickly

The world must have shook.

I'd always hoped it would happen

Like it does in a book.

He looked at me softly

And then tuched my hair

I felt so special,

Like he really did care.

He leaned over slowly

My heart upped its pace

Right at that moment

We where face to face.

When his lips touched mine

I thoughts i would melt

His kiss was the sweetest thing

I have ever felt.

Good-Bye (this one is dedicated to Chelsea Cooke, and also to Rachel Dorado)

And so it comes just as

It is a day no longer here

And through my trembling finger

The memories of the year.

I wave farewell to all our dreams,

I will forget you never.

I wonder if all our crazy times

Will stay with u forever.

But as i cry in pain

Of loosing my dear and such good friend.

I will not close the book and say:

"Farwell, This is the end."

For good-byes create swift hellows

And days from now you'll see

That though it hurts to say good-bye

Your friend ill always be.

Someone Special

Theres someone special in my life

Who doesnt know i care.

I wish i could let them know it,

But let it show i wouldnt dare.

I dont want to risk it

I dont want to even try

For if they knew i felt this way

I'd feel insecure and shy.

I never thought i'd feel this way

I never thought i'd care

There's something in that smile of their's

That makes me stop and stare

How can i tell if they like me too?

Will they ever look my way?

I'll keep my feelings hidden for now

And save them for another day.

The Key to My Heart

Late at night,

When i should be alseep,

Into my heart,

You quietly creep.

I sit and ponder,

How it could be,

But you must have stumbled across the key.

I know our friendship

Could mean so much more

But its up to you to open the door.

If Only I Had Known

If only i had known

It was our last walk in the rain,

I'd keep you out for hours int the storm.

I would hond your hand like a lifeline to my heart.

And underneath the thunder we'd be warm

If i had only known

It was our last walk in the rain.

If only i had known

I'd never hear your voice agian.

I'd memorize each thing you said.

And on these lonley nights.

I could think of them once more.

And keep your words alive inside my head

If i had only known

I would never hear your voice agian.

You where the treasure in my heart

You where the one who always stood beside me.

So unaware,

I foolishly believed you'd always be there.

But then there came that day when

I closed my eyes and you slipped away

I only i had known

It was my last night by your side.

I'd pray a miricle would stop the dawn.

And when you smiled at me

I would look into your eyes

And make sure you know my love for you goes on and on.

If only i had known, if only i had known.

The love i would have shown

If only i had known.

The Pit Of Love

I fixed my eyes upon the pit

And vowed to stay away

And yet the blackness called to me

From where i wished to stay

They say love's one mans folly

And another's key to fame

But love was not an issue

I hated the crying games

Still i wandered toward the pit

It held a strange allure

I'd never been before

Up to the edge i crept

Looking into the abyss.

Though i knew not what awaited me

This change i could not miss

I've lived a sheltered life

I longed to risk it all

I took one more step forward

'Twas there i took my fall

I tried to grab onto the edge

Regretting my new fate

Instead i kept on falling

My efforts were in vain.

Although i landed softly

I sensed a bruise or a scar

But these where often made

In matters of the heart

However, doubt consumed my mind

"Would he ge like the last?"

Untill at length i felt a thouch

It swept the doubt I'd cast

His strong hands pulled me close

As one we climed above

I relized i had fallen safe

Into the arms of love.

Untrue Love

Were you there the day the music died?

Did you want to hold me when i cried?

Did you fight to stand there by side

When i was in despare?

Did you keep me safe within your arms?

Did you protect me from all harm?

Or did you win me over.

Running fingers through my hair?

Did you simply see your chance

to get what you wanted with one dance?

You saw me hurting with one glance

And dicided to fool my heart.

And like a fool i went along

When we danced i sang the songs.

I never thought i could be wrong.

So i gladly played my part.

And now i lie here, wondering why

I ever thought you and I

Could fall in love

And never cry agian for what we've done.

I'm terrified of the way i feel

Now that i know you love isnt real.

I'm not sure my heart will ever heal,

Because all i can do is run.

I run from the future, but mostly the past.

Through fields and the forest so very fast.

Through the moonlight that

Midnight casts onto my crying eyes.

I've prayed that you would dicide to stay,

That i could keep you one more day.

And you wouldnt turn away

and leave me in this place

But ive fooled myself for much to long,

That our love was not a tradgic song.

And i assume you will be gone

No time left to borrow

I'll try and smile when you say good-bye

And wait till your gone to cry.

You'll be strong, and so will i

Though i feel so much sorrow.

And so i'll face this world alone

Cold as ice, hard as stone.

Untill a true love comes along

Ive nothing left to fear

But when our love has been long dead,

When we've moved on to the road ahead,

And im lying wide awake in my bed,

You memory will be here.

Tears

The tears i feel today

I'll wait to shed tomorrow.

Though i'll not sleep this night

Nor find sucress from sorrow.

My eyes must keep their sight.

I dare not be tear blinded,

I must be free to talk

Not choked with grief, clearminded.

My mouth cannot betray

The anguish that i know

Yes, ill keep my tears till later;

But my grief will never go.