Pushing through obstacles that are in my way,

The ironic sun shines on this cold, lonely day.

That path that I wish, I already know.

I learn by failure of getting where I have to go.

I spy my angel who is yet undead.

Her back is turned to me just up ahead.

She doesnt know much, knows not of my fate.

She doesnt know shell find out just a little too late.

As I draw near her, she is unaware of my presence,

So I defy the law of my evanescence.

I lean in close, wishing to hold her near.

Though she wont hear me, I whisper into her ear.

The sands of time have overturned.

Im crossing that bridge with the lessons Ive learned

I know you love me, but my time is fading.

This life has passed and now heavens waiting.

I know youre the only reason why Im stalling.

I want to go, I want to stay, but we all must answer Gods calling.

I couldnt hold on no matter how hard I tried,

So I will patiently wait for you to join my side.

Im sorry I couldnt be simply flawless,

I wouldnt purposefully hurt you just for my being thoughtless.

If only for you, Im sorry I lived in imperfection,

And paid in full the price for insurrection.

Forgive me, for I must depart the Earth and kiss the sky.

Im eternally yours. I love you, and goodbye.

I step back knowing she didnt hear my words.

She didnt hear me cry out with a pain she hasnt heard.

She turns around and I see her face,

And I begin to wonder what could be better than her grace.

I gaze into her crystal eyes, knowing she cant see me.

A smile escapes me as I glimpse her unrelenting beauty.

I allow myself regret for the end of lifes twists, turns, and flips.

And one last time, I kiss her soft, warm lips.

I dont know if the feeling is a figment of my memory,

But I dont care because its so close to my reality.

I allow the teardrop while Im feeling this bliss.

Its exactly like the first time I felt my angels kiss.

She speaks in that voice that always made my knees weak.

Goodbye was the last thing on my mind last week.

I wish she knew I was standing right there,

I wish I had one last chance to tell her how much I care.

How she was the most important piece of my life,

And how she removed the core of my strife.

How she pulled me out of my despair,

And she still doesnt know I was there.

My beautiful angel, now if you hear me:

I want to thank you for all the love you gave me.

Thank you so much for being who you are,

And Ill be listening when you wish upon a star.

I cant change a thing no matter how hard I try.

Im eternally yours. I love you, and goodbye.

Sleeper

I know that youre here, but youre so far away.

Holding you in my arms, I cant wait to see the day.

When were together, you see the smile Ive never shed before.

When were apart, its the smile I wont shed anymore.

Were together, though, and my eyes reflect bliss.

Like the first time I felt my angels kiss.

Were laughing; were dancing in sweet harmony.

I feel pure joy cause youre all around me.

Were dancing like children who dont give a FUCK who knows.

Because higher and higher, our friendship grows.

Theres no torment or anger, theres nobody weeping.

Somebody shake me cause I must be sleeping.

Its like my dream that youll never know.

Theres no limits to where we can go.

Together, theres nothing we cant do.

Forever, my heart will belong to you.

That ear-to-ear smile that was just a memory,

Has escaped my thoughts to manifest reality.

As we walk on home, Scot keys up a beat.

So Travis freestyles to the end of the street.

Were together, and its dissipated my greatest fear.

Theres no feeling like it when youre all so near.

Theres nobody else Ive found worth keeping,

Somebody shake me cause I must be sleeping.

Travis has butane; hes breathing his fire.

Our being side-by-side has always been my desire.

And Stephanies there, Chantelle, and SJ, too.

We all know its all good cause well always pull through.

Its dark, its cold, and it starts to rain.

So were laughing and dancing like weve all gone insane.

Theres that bliss in our eyes as we come face-to-face.

I want to forever stay locked in this eternal embrace.

Because were together, theres no reason to be afraid.

Reality is paradise while memories play and play.

The only fear that exists is my fear of waking.

If this IS a dream, then please God, dont ever wake me.

For my grandma and grandpa

I didnt think I could go on, but you told me I can,

You said my will was stronger than more than one man.

I thought it was the end, but you said it just started,

You said even in death we are not parted.

I believed Id never finish, but you said I could,

You said youd always let me know where you stood.

This is for you, who is so special to me,

You opened my eyes so I can further see.

I remember how you were always there,

I remember how much you seemed to care.

I remember the times I was your greatest concern,

I remember how you always gave me a fair turn.

I remember you asked what your death would mean to me,

You said it would not be much more than a fee.

You said youd be gone and that would be all,

If that were so then that will be where I fall.

Because I know I would never let go,

And all of this comes to show:

You were always there to give me advice,

The knowledge of love, hate, life, and vice.

When you said to be cremated I thought crucified,

At that moment I thought I could have died.

And as you will lay on the mortuary grounds,

The flames licking your body with cracking sounds,

They breathe into you the ashes of life,

A life within heaven, far from strife.

And I would always be missing you,

And remembering the things you were always able to do.

And from the future and my memories,

I remember one thing clearer than the seven seas:

I know, like you, sometimes I thought words of hate, and still,

When I said it was a life that will never be: you said it will.

My family and friends

It wont change me much, I said.

The night before lying in my bed.

After all, how would I begin to see,

How very much youd all mean to me.

Awkward hellos, strange and new,

Settling in and feeling blue.

Wondering then if youd like me or Id like you.

Who would I trust and who would be true?

Explore the campus to find a class,

Who could have known how quick time would come to pass?

Now being here is so much fun,

Ive made friends with everyone.

Youve brought out the best in me,

Him and her, us and we have become a family.

Thank you for letting me see the special part in each of you,

So now I have come to know.

Thank you for letting me be myself,

And helping my inner light to glow.

How do I say goodbye to all of my friends?

When all the time I dont want it to end?

How hard it is to say goodbye,

When all I want to do is sit and cry.

So until we can be together again,

God bless you all, my family, and my friends.

Friends are like angels

Friends are like angels who brighten our days
In all kinds of wonderful, magical ways.
Their thoughtfulness comes as a gift from above,
And we feel we're surrounded by warm, caring love.
Like upside down rainbows, their smiles bring the sun,
And they fill our worst moments with laughter and fun.
Friends are like angels without any wings,
Blessing our lives with the most precious things.
Youve been like an angel our whole friendship through.
And I cant wish enough of life's good things for you,
So I'll add to my wishes of peace, joy and love,
Everything else that your heart has ever dreamed of.

For my father

As a child, I remember seeing your face,

Now it seems as though you shone the lights of grace.

When I was eight, I remember how you were always there.

You taught me everything you knew with care.

When I was nine, I remember thinking that life was the best.

Feeling your breath of life as my head lay upon your chest.

I tried to hide it when they told me you had cancer,

But I know now that silence is never the answer.

I remember this day, full of laughter and fun,

Bragging to my friends that you were number one.

It feels really awkward that you could go away,

On such a bright and beautiful sunny day.

But still, a proctor pulled me out of school,

All the while I thought a small vacation? Cool!

We got out of the van, and my mom came to me,

Tears filled her eyes so she could barely see.

She said to me the Lord has finally taken your father to grace

And it was my turn for the tears to streak my face.

It surprised me so bad, because I had no clue,

I really didnt know what cancer could do.

It tears my insides and crushes my heart,

As I remember how you told me well never be apart.
I felt as though I would live in isolation and fear,

I can never help but to drop that one lone, single tear.

I felt as though you had left me forever alone,

Then I had a dream of when your inner light shone.

Right now, Im having major problems with life,

Believing it is nothing but a constant strife.

I find myself wishing that you were still here,

Beside me, taking away all my fear.

To the world, I look like I have it made,

But on the inside, Im so very afraid.

Though things are seemingly at their worst,

Though I can swear that to hell I have been cursed,

I somehow know you give the council I seek,

And your death touches my heart more than three times a week.

I love you, and Ill be missing you forever,

This may be my only endeavor.

To my mother

When I fall, I scream and call your name,

And I know you gave me a shot a fair game.

When I cry, I know I can look to you,

And there always seems to be nothing you cant do.

So many things you have done for me,

I wish you could open your eyes to clearly see:

I do love you whenever Im sad,

And I still love you when I am mad.

When I speak the words, they mean the truth,

And you speak as if you remember clearly your own youth.

You are my mother, and to me so dear,

To love you and lose you, I always fear.

You think you must die for me to understand,

But I, like you, can guide you if you take my hand.

If only you were able to read my thoughts,

You would find plenty more than a few knots,

But also you would find that I do know,

I understand what youve done for me, and this comes to show:

I am still by far a very young child,

And I know that at times I am way too wild.

I have also grown up to far greater level,

And I will not succumb to the power of the devil.

I know and understand what to do with my life,

No matter how bad things get, I wont take it with a knife.

I know I must look much further into my future,

For things to relish and others to nurture.

But I dont want to miss whats here and now,

No matter what happens, I will love you anyhow.

With my grandma

I look again into the burning flame,

watching it dance by the tip of the candle.

I feel the pain inside in sudden blame,

I feel as though its something I cant handle.

I remember my childhood, with my grandma in the fire.

The flames licked the scratchy surface of the desert.

I can still feel her hold me to my hearts desire,

I can remember her touch me whenever I was hurt.

She whispers to me how much she loves me,

and I miss these days on a cold summer night.

She listens to me, no matter how solemn the plea,

and no matter what happens,  our love holds on with all of our might.

Scot

When people ask about the fight, they always ask with who?

Yet when we first became friends, who wouldve knew?

From almost blowing up within your shop,

To the next thing closest to running from cops.

From poison ivy within the canyons,

To riding our bikes to your house above Banyon.

Since the first time we had become not-so close friends,

I knew you would be there when the nightmare ends.

You kept me (mostly) from harm when I received the threats,

And you and I always fulfilled each others debts.

Youve been with me through to the end,

And helped me through these wounds that never mend.

When asked who is my hero, I could safely say your name,

Even though neither of us are really excused from blame.

I got your back, and I know you got mine,

And I plan on being friends throughout the end of time.

Dennis

Youve been my friend for as far as I can remember.

You were there through my court date back last December.

Weve shared the greatest memories, and the best moments of the past,

And I already know that our friendship will always last.

I say this because it is one I treasure the most,

weve never fought, but always gave a playful boast.

We banter and bicker when were trying to wake,

And well always remember when I through Zach in the lake.

Youre short, funny, and everyone thinks youre cute,

And you have touched my heart to the deepest root.

In many ways, we still act like the children we are,

yet so much more, and I realize this every time we spar.

You have become a great grappler (when you actually train),

and you never give up, even through all the pain.

Even though youre always saying something new,

I know I can trust you in anything we do.

Stephanie

What can I do? What can I say?

What can I do to show you the way?

Through life, through death, through love and hate,

We seem to share a common fate.

You were there for me, as I am here for you,

and together, theres nothing we cant do.

A friendship held for so many years,

held throughout all of our tears.

Our friendship borne from laughter and fear,

and holds strong to assist in seeing the future clear.

Closer than friends, yet so far away,

 I know our friendship will forever stay.

Chantelle

what lies beneath a true friend?

Is it someone who is with you until the end?

Or is it simply someone who touches your heart?

Whom would always be there when your soul tears apart?

I think a friend is anyone that can make you cry,

someone who would be there the day you die.

They can pull you out of your deepest misery,

and turn raging rapids into a calm, smooth sea.

They are there for you to help you through your mistake,

they are there when, by god, it is for your own sake.

You have been a true friend, this whole friendship through,

without you, I dont know what I would do.

Though contact recently broke us apart,

I still remember you in my heart.

I always have your hand as my guide,

and you give me a reason to stop trying to hide.

Remember me, as I will you,

and the sun sets behind me, taking away the sky of blue.

Travis

if anyone asked what great contributions youve made to my life,

the silence of my answer could be cut through with a knife.

I dont know of anything youve done for me,

I dont know anything that my mind can see.

So why do I consider you a good friend of mine?

Where is the small, thin, red line?

I think our friendship was borne from my laughter,

and from this birth, it only grew thereafter

you have been my friend as long as I can remember,

and we will stay so will be my endeavor.

Even though you got me into that fight,

and even if you hide within the shadows of night,

I will be behind you until we prevail,

and you are one person I will never try to fail.

Steve

what? Getting you I Kung Fu wasnt enough?

I have to write a poem, and do other stuff?

Im joking man, I know youre there,

I know you have my back and do so without care.

youve come along way, as a colleague and friend,

and it will matter to all in the end.

In a sense, I watch you grow like a child,

like a growing boy who is a little too wild.

Your skills in fighting continue to grow,

but would you ever come to know?

You need to slow down, realize what is you,

know there is nothing that you cant do.

I got your back when you need it, dont back down now,

even without this warning, I know you wouldnt anyhow.

Our friendship will grow as time flies by,

until I see you again, then for now it is goodbye.

Mandi

Where did we become so good of friends?

Was it sharing the wounds we know never mends?

Then how did we grow so far apart?

How did it end before it had chance to start?

Was it, perhaps, the peaceful silence?

Or was it that my life is full of violence?

I once believed ignorance is bliss,

And I missed a chance at an angels kiss.

I found out how much I missed you the other day,

When my mind found itself wandering astray.

We need to try to keep in better touch,

I can honestly say this much.

Though I have not recently spoken with you,

There is so much you have helped me through.

We still need help, to step out into the light,

and we will live as friends for another night.

Sabrina

I dont know you as well as it would come to show,

so far, living life with your head hanging low.

The weight of the world rests upon your life,

and your brother makes it all a constant strife.

Pretty cool to know, all around,

not one to be constantly beat into the ground.

Remember the nights, not very far in the past,

why does it all pass so very fast?

some people claim I deserve to die,

yet they can never answer why.

Such accusations you have never made,

so why does the spirit continually fade?

I hope I come to get to know you better,

What can I do? What can I say?

To show you just how I feel today?

The way I know Ill feel tomorrow,

the way that will be while Im standing morrow?

The whole damn world is trying to break us apart,

But youve already dug yourself a place within my heart.

Why dont they stop? Cant they understand?

On the sandy shores of sunset we walkhand in hand.

The crimson red globe falls below the horizon;

Were running out of minutes with the services of Verizon. :-p

Sunset skies casting a radiant light;

Creeping around the corner is the dark, lonely night.

But not as long as I lay by your side,

Because you bring a feeling with which no other could abide.

The deep, dark ocean casts a valiant indigo;

I love you, this you already know.

Theres no way to describe just how I feel.

My love for you is so damn real.

Cant speak the words I wish to say,

but in a whisper, I love youit comes your way.

we hide in shadowssit quietly.

While the eyes of elders watch so faithfully.

By your side, Im distraught from within your calor,

and our love will pull through, with persistence and valor.

You have again invaded my thoughts, my dreams,

would the ends truly justify the means?

We have already been through so much, so little.

The bond that holds us is forever more than brittle.

People say its not loveonly lust,

Then god help me, because I have given you my trust.

With old scars for us both to help us deny,

We fix them together; perhaps theyre a lie.

With a history left guilded, tainted, beyond repair,

When I embrace your laughter, I do so with care.

When pulling through a stressful day,

Your voice alone makes everything okay.

They say I sit there, I choose to fantasize,

But your touch alone has left me mesmerized.

They say you are not, they say you lie

I say we shed our chrysalis and fly.

They say that you are cheating on me;

I smile and shrugI just let it be.

I dont care what they think, dont care what they say.

Your the first one, the only, whom I do not push away.

An angel who has left me in bliss,

take my breath away with every single kiss.

I dont care if you consume my thoughts with vise,

youve given me bliss, harmony, and paradise.

I cant find a flaw, within or without,

I will always hold true, without any doubts.

I can capture you, hold you deep within my heart,

Because I already missed you the minute we depart.